I’m back today to share the 2nd part of the 3 part Lightworker series. Last week’s article was all about 10 Traits of a Lightworker. This week is my story as a lightworker and what my life was like before I knew I was a lightworker, during my awakening, and what my life is like now.

My Life before I knew I was a lightworker

Not to be cliche, but my world was darker than it is now. Not in a bad way. I had a good life. Kids, husband, good job, friends, family. Life was good.

The Missing piece of the puzzle

But I remember always feeling like I was missing something. I literally would tell my husband “I’m happy, I have such a good life, but I’m missing something.” It was disorienting to feel like my life was so great but something important, the last piece of the puzzle was just gone from my life and I didn’t even know was that piece was.

I spent much of my life with anxiety and extreme self doubt. Throw on a heap of perfectionism and yeah, I was a hot mess. But I was holding it together! I thought this was just how life was! I constantly sought the advice of friends or family above my own opinion. Making even a small decision was agonizing.

Searching

I had gone to quite a few different churches and temples, thinking maybe religion was the missing piece. I had always considered myself spiritual but honestly had not much connection to God. I believed in a higher power but had no clue who that higher power was. I never felt at home in any of the churches so I took a break from that.

Validation

One day, driving to yoga ( I remember specifically!), I said a little prayer in my car. I said something to the effect of “If you hear my prayers, give me a sign.”

I get to yoga class and check-in, set up my mat and then my teacher announces that she brought special cards today she had never done this before!) and said feel free to pull a card. I went up to the cards and they were all turned over as to not see the front. I pulled the one right in front of me. It said “ The key to prayer is to forget what I think I need.” I got chills and thought to myself, ok so you can hear me. That was the beginning of my awakening.

What it was like during my awakening

I wish I could say one night my crown chakra opening up and I received information from the divine and had my awakening. Sigh. Nope. It was so much more of a process.

After the prayer card, I started to pay more attention to spirit, although at the time, I still didn’t know exactly what I was paying attention to. I would notice little things like a huge black feather on the ground in front of my front door. Angel number like 1111 or 444 were number that I saw often. I’d see little flashes of light in the corners of my eye.

I kept paying attention. For months it went on like this. Then one day, my friend and massage therapist asked if I’d like to go to a Meet Your Angels workshop with her. I said sure, why not. I had no idea if I believed in angels or not.

Meeting My Guides

That night changed my life forever. The woman leading the workshop was a hypnotherapist so she lead us into hypnosis and then guided us through a series of questions to help us meet our angels. I met mine almost instantly. Archangel Michael was the first one I spoke to.

But I was in for a surprise. I also met my higher self (who I had only met once before and didn’t really know who she was) and a spirit guide. They were in full color, crystal clear and I still can hear their words in my head. They essentially all told me that I needed to trust myself. It actually felt a bit more like they shouted that.

I remember driving home in wonder and also disbelief. I thought for sure I must have been imagining that whole experience. Or hallucinating. Over the next few days I kept recalling what had happened and decided I would follow their advice of trusting myself.

Reiki

The facility where the workshop was held just happened to be a Reiki studio. After reading the brochures about what Reiki was, I immediately signed up for a class and started the following weekend. I was hooked. I took every class offered there and ended up becoming a Reiki Master Teacher and then later Karuna Reiki and also Kundalini Reiki. It transformed my life and my relationship to spirit. It facilitated my tapping into my own intuition.

I stopped texting my friends for their opinions. I began to sit and ask myself with my eyes closed what I should do. A little meditation practice begin in this way and over time, I actually began to cultivate a relationship with my higher self and my spirit team.

Lightworker

Doubt began to be erased by trust. As my team spoke to me more and more, I began to get snippets of information of why I was really here. What my true purpose was. The more information I got, the more it felt right in my body. I had found the missing piece to my puzzle.

They told me that I was a Lightworker. That I was actually a healer and here to help people heal their wounds and be a beacon of light for others. The old me was like umm no. I’m a mother, wife, and professional violinist. The new me knew they were right but I still didn’t know how to integrate this new information into my life.

Coming Out the Other Side

My awakening was an amalgamation of experiences, healing, developing my intuition praying, meditation and developing a connection to my spirit team. Integration of my new way of being took a while. I think I’m still integrating. Changing the way one exists both physically and mentally and emotionally and energetically is a process I suppose.

Becoming a lightworker made me realize something. We don’t actually become a lightworker. We were born this way. When we have an awakening, it’s literally us remembering why we are here and what we are here to do. We all have the call. The longing or nagging feeling that something is missing.

In next week’s article, the last article of the Lightworker series, I will be sharing how to embrace your role as a lightworker. We will talk about the dirty details like what this role means for you emotionally, physically, mentally, financially….all of it.

I really hope that my story as a lightworker resonated with you and maybe reassures you that you are on the right path.

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